Third Person Speaking (I)

oleh A. Awantang

Aku akan mula hargai kewujudan dia,

Apabila dia belajar menghormati lumrah naluri manusia.

Sandakan, Oktober 2014

Supernova

oleh A. Awantang

Satu macam perasaan

yang menerkam sekujur badan

dari tempat-tempat gah.

Dada mengembang ghairah,

otot kejang menabrak perlahan

bahu terangkat

seiring turun-naik pernafasan.

Nova,

Seringkali bingung tertanya

sudut Bimasakti manakah 

asalnya seorang manis perawan

seperti kamu?

masihkah ada lagi yang lebih manis, mulus,

dan elok yang diasumsikan seperti kamu?

Usai dia bisa mengembang

Membentuk satu objek cahaya terang

Iris coklat bundar memandang

Kiri, kanan mereka sesak -- depan, belakang. 

Apa tidak cukup untuk seorang?

Kota Kinabalu, September 2014

The Secret Life of A Beautiful Kiwi

Sometimes I wish I can hide,

Hide into a hobbit hole,

Try to run away from reality and starts

to dream of unicorns and candy rain,

Little wish of hideous person probably too tired with things around her.

L.I.F.E

Sometimes I wonder, 

If I recreate a fantasy 

of you and me,

Will you eventually see me?

L.O.V.E

*     *     * 

Shall I tell you a story?

An untold story that takes me 

years and years to write

Perhaps, once my wild imagination runs in my head

and this sudden rush pursued me to write.

but when I started to write;

Only blank pages and the smoke from my black cup coffee remain abide.

Now that I am trying to write;

Maybe I will start telling what I am trying to write.

*     *     * 

So if I keep myself busy

occupied with piles of books and pages,

Will you get out of my mind?

Because all I think about each and every second 

is your smile, your smile

and your big bright smile

that won't even smile back to me.

*     *     * 

Small parts of me hates

Your face that floats in my mind

but another part of me

Glad that you are there

Even if it is just by myself

Me and my own fantasy

I asked myself,

"If I change a small part of me 

then make it shine just for you,

What will that make me?"

Antara Manis dan Bisa Ular

oleh A. Awantang

Baik,

Begini,

Kata-kata manis adalah hal paling bodoh pernah dia dengar.

Inikan pula janji,

Janji palsu yang hanya membuat hati dia terangkat tinggi,

Cecah awan dan unggas liar,

Paling dia takuti lidah ular,

Sekali patukkannya bisa hilang rasa.

Dan dia,

Dia masih alah dengan semua,

Bahkan kecanduan sama,

Biarlah bisa ke arteri karotis,

Biarlah mati paling tragis,

Dia hanya mampu menangis

sendiri.

Kata-kata manis adalah hal paling bodoh pernah dia dengar.

Kota Kinabalu, September 2014